Sunday, April 13, 2014

Fatigue is here......


Waking up earlier than the alarm clock is the norm. Today it was pills, chat with friends, breakfast and then back into bed for an hour or two. I feel good but I am tired, my eyes are tired, and I get out of breath quicker than before. This is going to be frustrating but it will be something that I will have to get used to.

 It really isn't that strange that I am tired if I think about how many drugs are in my body fighting this cancer. They are working hard and of course they are taking my energy. KEEP FIGHTING.

I haven't lost my appetite so much, which is good and bad. Good that I can eat and fill up on my nutrients. Bad because I had hoped that I would lose my appetite and lose some weight at the same time without having to go on a diet. (That was supposed to be the upside to this ordeal.)

Spent the early part of the day either eating, resting on the couch, snoozing on the couch, annoying the kids with questions of homework, or eating. Not my usual ambition level but it will have to be my current ambition level.

Then we got invited over to the neighbors, Linda and Bosse for some coffee and cake. It was good to get out of the house and spend some time with them. Many laughs.................Thanks Linda and Bosse.

Dinner was a hodge podge of what we had in the refrigerator and freezer. I was too tired to make the food list to send Peter for the shopping before he left for London tonight. I will make a quick trip tonight to the supermarket with my oldest and be in and out in 20 minutes. Then we will have food for a few days.

Then my youngest and I took a walk with the dog. It was good to get out but the pace was slower than usual. FRUSTRATION. 

I realize that this feeling of fatigue is an adjustment but now I need to find a new routine to make it work for me. Good to learn how to be lazy. This will be a challenge but I never shy away from challenges.



  1. Anonymous13/4/14

    Sim vanligt en helt enorm styrka och attityd som du utstrålar. Du är såååå bra! Ha en fin kväll!!/ irre

  2. Dearest Teresa, Learning to take it easy - is a process your body is adjusting to right? but your mind, I know is always working excellently. So take this time to rest, and I know you will use your mental energies to plan the house in London. You have already done so much to prepare for this cancer, for London, for your boys and family. Keep thinking about the wonderful reasons why you love your family and friends. They for sure are praying and thinking about you each day. and let me know what's going on with the British shows from Sweden. I miss you. Love, your mother and Dad

  3. Very wise parents you've got, but that I already knew as their daughter is like them. As they are saying, your body is in adjustment and it talks to you big time to give it a chance to process what is happening in it. Resting is not being lazy, it's respecting the wishes of it fighting to give you life. Perhaps you should take up knitting? naaah! just joking, you're more like the chessplayer; setting up plans and contingency alternatives in your agile mind. I'm sure the doggies love their walks even if they are at a slower pace, they know their mummy needs to take it easy for a while. Wishing you a beeeeautiful Monday Teresa!! cheers! xx

  4. Anonymous14/4/14

    Du är en så enorm inspiration! tack för dina fantastiska ord!
    Stora kramar till dig!