Lyckligt ovetande (ignorance is bliss)

2014.06.18

WEDNESDAY

It might seem crazy what I'm 'bout to say

Sunshine she's here, you can take a break

I'm a hot air balloon that could go to space

With the air, like I don't care, baby, by the way

(Because I'm happy)

Clap along if you feel like a room without a roof

(Because I'm happy)

Clap along if you feel like happiness is the truth

(Because I'm happy)

Clap along if you know what happiness is to you

Annotate (Because I'm happy)

Clap along if you feel like that's what you wanna do

Here come bad news, talking this and that (Yeah!)

Well, give me all you got, don't hold it back (Yeah!)

Well, I should probably warn ya, I'll be just fine (Yeah!)

No offense to you, don’t waste your time, here's why...

(Because I'm happy)

Clap along if you feel like a room without a roof

(Because I'm happy)

Clap along if you feel like happiness is the truth

(Because I'm happy)

Clap along if you know what happiness is to you

Annotate (Because I'm happy)

Clap along if you feel like that's what you wanna do

Bring me down

Can't nothing bring me down

My level's too high to bring me down

Can't nothing bring me down, I said...

Bring me down

Can't nothing bring me down

My level's too high to bring me down

Can't nothing bring me down, I said...

(Because I'm happy)

Clap along if you feel like a room without a roof

(Because I'm happy)

Clap along if you feel like happiness is the truth

(Because I'm happy)

Clap along if you know what happiness is to you

Annotate (Because I'm happy)

Clap along if you feel like that's what you wanna do

My last 24 hours and the ignorance is bliss. The results are already determined but I don’t know them yet. Whatever happens tomorrow I will be OK. Right? YES.

It will be a defining moment when I get the news. Either reserved happiness with an enormous sense of relief or a crappy feeling with disbelief which will eventually turn into a new resolve. (although it could take a week or two)

Today Eric and I went back to the hospital for an appointment with the diabetes doctor Eva. She borrows his blood sugar meter and hooks it up to the computer to look at his results from the last two weeks.  She then makes some adjustments to his carb. calculations so that in effect he will be taking less insulin. She is a great doctor and has an excellent way of explaining things in an easy way.

Eric was hungry when we left the hospital so it was a forced stop at McDonalds. Getting tired of that place. Eric likes it though. So I must make sacrifices…

Heading into town, it was a perfect opportunity to stop in at SOUL, my favorite hair dressers and say hi. I missed them and it will be a while until I need a haircut again. I will have to fly back to Stockholm for that. HUGS.

Our next stop was my school to see what LEGO I had left there and which stuff I am leaving there for next year. It was great to see my colleagues and chat a bit with them.  HUGS.

We made our way home with the music blaring in the car. Eric talked during all of my favorite songs and asked me to be quiet during his songs….hmmmmmmm

Beatles “Let it Be” played and many other good songs, made the trip go quicker. It is interesting how fast upbeat music makes the car go faster……hmmmmmmmm

So, my hematology doctor knows the results but I don’t. I figure that whatever it is it will be OK. Of course bad news would suck but I will have to figure it out.

Tomorrow is the day. The results will be known by me. I am prepared for the good news. One bottle of champagne for the doctor and one for us tomorrow night. I told the doctor he would only get the bottle if it is good news.  J

Kids are on the trampoline and I guess I need to make some sort of dinner. It is good to keep busy as it makes the time go by faster.

ANXIOUS but CALM. HAPPY but SUBDUED. LOVED and GRATEFUL. FRIENDS and FAMILY. FINISH LINE. KICKING CANCER’S ASS.